I have grown ever so weary of grieving.
I have grown ever so weary of tearing.
I have grown ever so weary of crying.
I have gown ever so weary of dying
(Deep inside—I AM still Alive!)
She is dead and gone!
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If Madelyn had ever made a movie… this would have been her. She would have stolen the show.
(And I would’ve played the Sad Sack idiot–merely a bit-sidekick player)
Hold me closer Dear Loved Sister.
I’ll see you soon.
Unless I end up in that
But I know exactly what she would say to me:
“Lance! Get on WITH YOUR LIFE!”
I want to be happy again.
I want ‘happy-go-lucky’ back in my life again.
I want to write happy shit again.
I want to watch happy videos again (and not feel guilty for watching them)
I want Beauty back in my life again.
I want Music back in my life again
I want Comedy back in my life again.
I WANT TO LAUGH AGAIN!
I will never forget Madelyn.
But she is right:
I need to get on with what is left of MY Life.
“I love you Madelyn.“
(And thank you—thank you for loving me)
And for being my friend
I cannot explain why I feel so guilty over the loss of my sister.
Perhaps because I let our relationship go south and did not stay in-touch with her.
(Perhaps Because I am an obnoxious drunk—but she forgave me that)
I am gonna explore a new technique:
I am gonna try to FORGIVE ME.
And try a little tenderness
Because that is what Madelyn would want.
(to your heart)
NEVER Leave Her!”
I am not ‘writer’ enough to ‘write’/express my feelings about Madelyn.
But I am gonna keep banging away…
“I thank The Lord for all the people…
I have found.”
(And more importantly, for all those who found me.)