I Didn’t Even Know She Was Ill. I Had To Read About It On Fucking Face-Book! Fucking FaceBook! Imagine My Shame! The Cunt! She Didn’t Even Say ‘Goodbye’ Guess She Was Too Busy Dyin’. She Left Me… Permanently! I Will NEVER EVER EVER Forgive Her For That!
Bob Dylan – It’s Alright, Ma
(I’m Only Bleeding)
Dylan—Duh!
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That Bitch-On-Wheels!
Fuk Her & Her Pony Too! I Hate HER!
She Left Me & She Broke My Fragile Heart.
BITCH!
I Was ALWAYS Slated To Go First!
She Reneged On Our Deal!
She Once Told Me:
“Lance, I Will Never Ever Leave You”
Lyin’ Bitch!

I Cannot Git Threw This
Makes Me Fukking Cry
Why???
Why?
Oh Why?
I Am Supposed To Be Stronger Than This!
“The Garden” –
Beautiful Song For A Lost, Loved One
Gone Too Soon – Simple Plan
But I Just Fucking Melt
Over My Departed Sister!
Goddamn It!
Goddamn Her!!!
Why?!
“Fuck Everything I do Not Give a shit! Read if you have want. Yeah! I am bitter! Madelyn!
Godamn Her!
She Died On Me!
She Was Always So Popular!
The Phone Rang Off The Wall!
The Call Was Always For her! Never For Me!
“Lance is an asshole! Talk to Madelyn—She is Nice”—Bullshit! She was Not Nice To Anyone But Me.
In Her Heart. We Knew and Understood “The Game”
But We Never Verbalized it; We Did Not Have To”
I miss her so Fucking much
I cannot write anymore on this right now.
I’ll get back to it.
My heart is still broken.
Some may ponder
Wonder
Why?
I Love her so much
Here is the reason
For All Seasons
She Always Stood By Me
Through thick and Thin
She was My Athena,

She
shielded
Me
From the World
(Even When I was in Iraq)
She was always there for me
Constant as the Northern Star
Change the name from ‘Richard’ to ‘Madelyn’
Then You May Catch My Drift:
Fuck it!
This was The Joni I wished to share!
So There!
Constantly in the darkness?
Where’s that at?
If you want me, I’ll be in the bar.:
Joni is such a complicated / fascinating brilliant woman,
as was my Madelyn, my sister
My much loved and missed sis
Goddamn I Miss her!
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Lance & His B’Loved Sis:
I truly wish I had more pics, but I don’t–my misfortune, not yours.
The Untimely Loss of her… fuck it!
I have said it all before.
But I am sad.
I cannot put it more succinctly than that
I Miss Her

CUNT!
I WILL Never, FORGIVE HER
FOR LEAVING ME!